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First of all..HOORAY FOR MY LJ CLUSTER WORKING AGAIN!!!!!


Okay. Anyway, I discovered something interesting last night. Being slaphappy and depressed at 2 am is definitely an odd combination. I never thought those two could be possible, but it ended up with me cracking up over what was making me sad. Go figure.

And I had my first nightmare in a long time. I was in this huge building with my mom and a ton of other people. A few I knew- like a girl I went to high school with, but the rest were strangers. And in one part of the place there was a huge pool that was like..millions of feet deep and filled with holy water. O.o...And then two new people enter the scene, they are apparently my sisters. As is the girl I went to high school with. And here's where it got..freaky. Satan shows up. Very similar to the portrayal of 'im in The Passion, but different somehow. And he tells me that if my sisters think the word "evil" in conjunction with me (even in jest) that my soul is lost forever...and I'm freaking out, obviously. I mean..I often joke about being the 'evil empress' and whutnot..so yeah. And oddly enough, I wasn't worried at all about the two 'unknown sisters', but when I found out that the girl I went to high school with counted as one, I began to just..spasm and whutnot in this dream. I don't think my actual body did though, as that would just be weird. And then this old lady in a wheelchair falls into the pool and I'm the only one who can save her...so I do. And then I woke up, suitably freaked out.

And then today I skipped both classes. Too damn unmotivated to do anything.

Although I did come to a conclusion last night...it could very easily be jealousy that's causing most of my problems right now. Heh. Jealous of people I've never met. Pathetic.

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Okay...two insanely weird dreams in one night.

First one, Miss Saigon comes back to the hall for one night, so of course I go and work. And as I'm starting to do my presets, Bridget comes in and says "Katy, we need you elsewhere" and makes me put on one of the "American Dream" leotards...and I'm like "oooooooooooookay" And then I'm sent out on stage for part of a number....then afterward, I get no credit. :( But I like..remember exactly what I was wearing- I was wearing my black work pants and my "You don't know me- federal witness protection program" t-shirt I got in Washington DC..and my purple bandana. Which of course I had to tear off before going on stage, so my hair looked like complete crap as I had obviously been wearing it all day. And then after the show, Justin shows up in the hallway to get to the spotbooth, and he's mad at me for some reason. And I'm like.."whatever" and the dream ends.

Then I dreamt that I was working for some mob boss or something and had to kill my partner. He didn't know I had to kill him, so was completely trusting me as we go through an old warehouse...and I'm not about to actually kill him until the mob boss shows up with an ice pick and threatens to stab my tongue out if I don't...so I'm like "eek" and wait for my partner, with the boss right behind me..he gives me the ice pick and instead of killing my partner, I jam it in the guys thigh and he dies. Then my partner and I wandered off to a playground and watched the kids play.

Highly amusing, both of these were.

Now...to get the motivation to go to psychology today. Don't see it happening. -_-

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( Lyrics Spammage )

Anyway, I'm typing this, listening (i.e. singing along to) to my Miss Saigon soundtrack, and working on my short story about Damry. Hooray for multi-tasking! And earlier I found the most awesome fanfic. 'tis a Luke/Mara one. I was like.."wow..." Here it is....Do be warned. It is rated R for a reason.

Anyway...I can't wait for Spring Break. Lately I have beens kipping class a lot, and I'm just..so sick of it all. Of course my emotional state has something to do with it, but then there's also the insane stress from classes. At least I got some good news. My Spanish grade is a 79.9...meaning if I do well on this next test, my gpa is saved. This makes me feel a LOT better. I was freaking out.

So yeah. Didn't do much of anything today. Just anxiously counting the hours until Spring Break. And endlessly listening to my MIss Saigon soundtrack. ^_^

Nothing important other than that.