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Mar. 17th, 2004 01:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
katirothFirst of all..HOORAY FOR MY LJ CLUSTER WORKING AGAIN!!!!!
Okay. Anyway, I discovered something interesting last night. Being slaphappy and depressed at 2 am is definitely an odd combination. I never thought those two could be possible, but it ended up with me cracking up over what was making me sad. Go figure.
And I had my first nightmare in a long time. I was in this huge building with my mom and a ton of other people. A few I knew- like a girl I went to high school with, but the rest were strangers. And in one part of the place there was a huge pool that was like..millions of feet deep and filled with holy water. O.o...And then two new people enter the scene, they are apparently my sisters. As is the girl I went to high school with. And here's where it got..freaky. Satan shows up. Very similar to the portrayal of 'im in The Passion, but different somehow. And he tells me that if my sisters think the word "evil" in conjunction with me (even in jest) that my soul is lost forever...and I'm freaking out, obviously. I mean..I often joke about being the 'evil empress' and whutnot..so yeah. And oddly enough, I wasn't worried at all about the two 'unknown sisters', but when I found out that the girl I went to high school with counted as one, I began to just..spasm and whutnot in this dream. I don't think my actual body did though, as that would just be weird. And then this old lady in a wheelchair falls into the pool and I'm the only one who can save her...so I do. And then I woke up, suitably freaked out.
And then today I skipped both classes. Too damn unmotivated to do anything.
Although I did come to a conclusion last night...it could very easily be jealousy that's causing most of my problems right now. Heh. Jealous of people I've never met. Pathetic.
Okay. Anyway, I discovered something interesting last night. Being slaphappy and depressed at 2 am is definitely an odd combination. I never thought those two could be possible, but it ended up with me cracking up over what was making me sad. Go figure.
And I had my first nightmare in a long time. I was in this huge building with my mom and a ton of other people. A few I knew- like a girl I went to high school with, but the rest were strangers. And in one part of the place there was a huge pool that was like..millions of feet deep and filled with holy water. O.o...And then two new people enter the scene, they are apparently my sisters. As is the girl I went to high school with. And here's where it got..freaky. Satan shows up. Very similar to the portrayal of 'im in The Passion, but different somehow. And he tells me that if my sisters think the word "evil" in conjunction with me (even in jest) that my soul is lost forever...and I'm freaking out, obviously. I mean..I often joke about being the 'evil empress' and whutnot..so yeah. And oddly enough, I wasn't worried at all about the two 'unknown sisters', but when I found out that the girl I went to high school with counted as one, I began to just..spasm and whutnot in this dream. I don't think my actual body did though, as that would just be weird. And then this old lady in a wheelchair falls into the pool and I'm the only one who can save her...so I do. And then I woke up, suitably freaked out.
And then today I skipped both classes. Too damn unmotivated to do anything.
Although I did come to a conclusion last night...it could very easily be jealousy that's causing most of my problems right now. Heh. Jealous of people I've never met. Pathetic.
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Date: 2004-03-17 09:06 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-03-17 09:56 am (UTC)t'would be nice to know who you were though. Initials don't ring a bell. :(
sorry
Date: 2004-03-17 11:02 am (UTC)