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Jan. 27th, 2004 12:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
katirothMaybe it's fear. Fear holding me back from where I need to be. After all, it's fear that keeps me from doing what I know I need to. Fear of what the consequences might be. I'm afraid that my choices could cause anothers downfall, and I don't want that.
It's fear that's keeping me from realizing my dreams. I am afraid of rejection. I'm sacred to death of suddenly being left out of my circle of friends. I'm afraid that I am thinking too highly of myself when it comes to my friends in the first place.
So perhaps it's doubt as well. Doubting that my own abilities and personality are what draws people to me, and that they like me for not who or what I am...just what they see.
Maybe.
And actually...despite the kinda...darkness of this post, I am in an insanely good mood. I haven't been this up for a while. Amazing what a good friend can do. :)
It's fear that's keeping me from realizing my dreams. I am afraid of rejection. I'm sacred to death of suddenly being left out of my circle of friends. I'm afraid that I am thinking too highly of myself when it comes to my friends in the first place.
So perhaps it's doubt as well. Doubting that my own abilities and personality are what draws people to me, and that they like me for not who or what I am...just what they see.
Maybe.
And actually...despite the kinda...darkness of this post, I am in an insanely good mood. I haven't been this up for a while. Amazing what a good friend can do. :)
