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[katiroth]

I'm beginning to wonder if I have an eating disorder. I guess recently I've been really self-conscious about the way I look, and I've gone to eating just one meal a day...and I barely eat anything then. I mean..I eat one slice of pizza and either a small helping of cottage cheese or a bowl of cereal. If the dining hall has something better, or if they're out of pizza, I'll get something else...but a piece of pizza and a small side dish can't be healthy.

But I'm just not hungry...and I'm beginning to wonder if it's something psychological. I mean..I've never eaten this little. Nor have I ever gorged myself..but still..this is not normal for me.

I try not to think of myself as fat, but it's hard when everyone around me is like...95-100 pounds. I mean..I'm still nowhere near plus sizes, but my height along with this extra little bit I carry around just makes me feel pretty frumpy...or something like that. Meh. So I'm not eating, telling myself I'm not hungry.

I could turn this into a rant on how society effects us, telling women they need to be skinny to be happy or loved, but I'll spare you all.

Merf. I also wonder what might be if a few things hadn't happened. Scary. But I'm not going to go into that either.

Comments

[ceekay-kun.livejournal.com]

That's pretty serious thinking you have an eating disorder...While I guess it would be hard to say for me since I don't know the full extant of what you eat on a daily schedule, I know that eating habits can change drastically between college and when you're at home. When I moved into our house on campus, I went from eating lunch, dinner, and going to late-nite (specialty diner) at the residence halls to barely getting a meal in a day O_o...Anyway, I hope it's nothing psychological...all this conformity to skinny people can be seriously depressing...and besides...you seem to have plenty of people who like you just the way you are :D

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[darnaxx.livejournal.com]

Hun... you really need to have this looked into. It's not an uncommon condition, usually called Anorexia (although I dunno if you've reached that level yet), and can be -extremely- serious if not dealt with. Granted I don't always eat so well, it's still not something I like to deal with and you shouldn't even try.

Only you can decide if you're happy with how you look, and if you're 'the right weight', but I can tell you myself from looking at your picca that you're cute as all Hell >.< I'd hit on you *L* Mebbe that'll creep you out, mebbe it'll help, but do something about this before it gets bad...