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( Forever Love )

I love that song. 'tis the ending theme of X/1999, but I posted it in English, so people could actually understand it. Anyway, I'm still kind..mehish. Next week will be the week from hell, too. >.< Monday will be okay. Pysch, Ethics, Spanish...Tuesday through Sunday...eh...complete 'nother story. I discovered that I shall have to cut Anthro and Computers to work wardrobe for Miss Saigon..and then Wednesday should be all right, normal class stuff...but Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday..and Sunday, I believe, I get to work the show. Sigh. I'm almost afraid to, because if Brian puts me somewhere where I don't know how to do something..ergh. I'll just die.

I'm already having nightmares about it. Last night I dreamt that I was working the show and the performing all got sick, but the show had to go on, so we techies were given scripts and told to go out there. >.> Normally that would be like.."OMG! I AM SO HAPPY!" but the performers that weren't sick were so snotty to us and I tried to use a fan to hide the script, but they took that away and made me use a folder. O.o ...So then I'm trying to get my lines out, but the book isn't highlighted and the stage is dark, so I screw up.

Sigh. At least it is completely impossible for that to happen..but I'm still scared about that show. I've never worked a huge show, just the symphony and small venues. I just don't want to screw up.

At least I got the party at Amy's this weekend. :)

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Confidante
Carrying everyone else
Bearing the burden
listening, watching, sighing

Dying inside
the confidante
she makes up excuses
to hide how she feels

After all, her thoughts aren't her own
Shared by the hordes
All of whom talk
never listen
Only take
Never give.

She's tired
But won't back down
feelings continue to be buried inside
As the smile outside faces the world
She's tired
But she'll keep on listening

Listening until deafness steals into her life.

When emptiness becomes divine.

Confidante, keep listening to me
Keep burying the feelings deep down
Don't give into jealousy
Remember your place.

You exist to bring comfort
Though that comfort will never be yours.
Smile, be happy.

After all,
if you know it
you can get used to it
And stop dying inside

Wait. No.
You can't.
Overwhelmed by yourself
You keep
nodding
smiling
hating
crying
loving
sighing
giving
and dying.

Confidante, don't give up
you are truly a special one
Maybe one day you'll find your own
And put on her
what you now hold.

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I am completely normal.

It's YOU ALL who are the weirdos. ^_^

Hehe. I had the meeting with the rest of the research assistants and the professor this morning, and we decided that since we're psychologists, we decide what's normal...so we decided that we're normal..everyone else is abnormal. Yeah. :)