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This has been an interesting few days. I've gone from uber-paranoid (For a reaaaally silly reason, one too embarassing to share) to uber-happy, to uberly in pain (Damn being a woman!). My emotional state has also been kinda...weird, but meh. It's dealable with.
Although, before I get into the deep stuff...I gotta share this. Yesterday morning is when my church decided to have the Christmas stuff, rather than last week. So we get there for Sunday school, and Mary Beth, the lady who teaches childrens church, was running around like a chicken with her head cut off in preparation for the kids program, which was basically all that church was going to be. And I say "Hey...can I help?" and she's like "Katy...yeah. *pause* Lucrezia's not here...wanna be Mary?" ....and I'm like "uuuhhh..." ...Then she's like "Great!" ...and I wind up with a huge sheet on, carrying a pillow wrapped in a towel. Yep. Someone forgot baby Jesus. But it was kinda cool. Though I have been in countless Christmas programs, I have never been Mary, given that as a young child I had reaaaally light blonde hair, and then as an older child, dishwater blonde hair. And then when I got older, there was always someone with darker brown hair than me....and then when I dyed it red? Pfft. But yeah. Finally got to be Mary, after 20 years.
But anyway...alas, my mind isn't exactly...normal. I have more questions to answer now than ever before to answer, and naturally, the answers aren't coming with any regularity. It has to do with so many different things, from the way my life is going, to the relationships and friendships that I cherish so much. Anyway...my mom still hasn't called the bank for the loan I need. If she doesn't tomorrow, I'm just going to resign myself to taking a semester off, and taking several summer classes, so that my loans don't have to be paid off too soon. I have a six month grace period....and believe me, I need it. I don't need anymore creditors on my case. Yeah. I got some already. But with my Christmas money, it should be basically taken care of. And then there's the matter of several other things..but meh. I won't really worry about it right now. I can deal with it later.
There are other things, more important emotional things that seriously need to be dealt with, before I completely freak out. Or maybe I am just overreacting. It's entirely possible. Things have been kinda...weird lately anyway. I find myself questioning myself and my motives, and wondering about several old sayings...wondering if they really are true. And that dream I had last week? I'm thinking about that again, and wondering why I'm constantly plagued by dreams of this pers...no..plagued isn't the right word. They aren't disturbing, just kinda....yeah. Strange, because there's no reason to be dreaming about this person. Like...one or two isn't a big deal, but I've had one almost once a month, even when not thinking about this person.
And it's not like I've been trying to cause anymore weirdness in my life. It just kinda...happens. Blah.
Okay.....enough of the quintessential teen angst. I must say how incredibly awesome KotOR II is. I got it several weeks ago, but had to put it aside for a week, as it's technically my little brother's Christmas present, but since Saturday, he and I have been playing nonstop. I'm on Onderon right now...well, technically Dxum and he's on Dantooine. It's...so fun, even though I think I lost some influence with Atton when I decided to train Disciple to be a Jedi. Oops. Must gain more influence, and make him fall in love with me. ^_^ ...and Visas is the coolest. I hate her "My life for yours" attitude, but otherwise, she's cool. Especially the outfit. I think I know who I'm going to be for Halloween next year. Oh. Atris is a bitch. :)
Anyway...methinks this is enough ranting about nothing. I hope everyone had a decent holiday and whutnot.
Although, before I get into the deep stuff...I gotta share this. Yesterday morning is when my church decided to have the Christmas stuff, rather than last week. So we get there for Sunday school, and Mary Beth, the lady who teaches childrens church, was running around like a chicken with her head cut off in preparation for the kids program, which was basically all that church was going to be. And I say "Hey...can I help?" and she's like "Katy...yeah. *pause* Lucrezia's not here...wanna be Mary?" ....and I'm like "uuuhhh..." ...Then she's like "Great!" ...and I wind up with a huge sheet on, carrying a pillow wrapped in a towel. Yep. Someone forgot baby Jesus. But it was kinda cool. Though I have been in countless Christmas programs, I have never been Mary, given that as a young child I had reaaaally light blonde hair, and then as an older child, dishwater blonde hair. And then when I got older, there was always someone with darker brown hair than me....and then when I dyed it red? Pfft. But yeah. Finally got to be Mary, after 20 years.
But anyway...alas, my mind isn't exactly...normal. I have more questions to answer now than ever before to answer, and naturally, the answers aren't coming with any regularity. It has to do with so many different things, from the way my life is going, to the relationships and friendships that I cherish so much. Anyway...my mom still hasn't called the bank for the loan I need. If she doesn't tomorrow, I'm just going to resign myself to taking a semester off, and taking several summer classes, so that my loans don't have to be paid off too soon. I have a six month grace period....and believe me, I need it. I don't need anymore creditors on my case. Yeah. I got some already. But with my Christmas money, it should be basically taken care of. And then there's the matter of several other things..but meh. I won't really worry about it right now. I can deal with it later.
There are other things, more important emotional things that seriously need to be dealt with, before I completely freak out. Or maybe I am just overreacting. It's entirely possible. Things have been kinda...weird lately anyway. I find myself questioning myself and my motives, and wondering about several old sayings...wondering if they really are true. And that dream I had last week? I'm thinking about that again, and wondering why I'm constantly plagued by dreams of this pers...no..plagued isn't the right word. They aren't disturbing, just kinda....yeah. Strange, because there's no reason to be dreaming about this person. Like...one or two isn't a big deal, but I've had one almost once a month, even when not thinking about this person.
And it's not like I've been trying to cause anymore weirdness in my life. It just kinda...happens. Blah.
Okay.....enough of the quintessential teen angst. I must say how incredibly awesome KotOR II is. I got it several weeks ago, but had to put it aside for a week, as it's technically my little brother's Christmas present, but since Saturday, he and I have been playing nonstop. I'm on Onderon right now...well, technically Dxum and he's on Dantooine. It's...so fun, even though I think I lost some influence with Atton when I decided to train Disciple to be a Jedi. Oops. Must gain more influence, and make him fall in love with me. ^_^ ...and Visas is the coolest. I hate her "My life for yours" attitude, but otherwise, she's cool. Especially the outfit. I think I know who I'm going to be for Halloween next year. Oh. Atris is a bitch. :)
Anyway...methinks this is enough ranting about nothing. I hope everyone had a decent holiday and whutnot.
