Oct. 14th, 2003 12:00 pm
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Last night was..insane. While I was up and about, nothing out of the ordinary..I was simply online like always...but about 1:00ish, I finally go to bed, and just as I'm about to drift off, I heard a loud voice come from the ahllway screaming. "Fuck this, she could have died!"...and then all hell breaks loose. I still don't know the whole story, but apparently two of the girls in the hall went out drinking and partying last night. One of them got veeeeery drunk, the other only mildly so. So the veeeeeeeeery drunk one wasn't allowed into a party..and the mildly drunk one was. She completely abandoned her veeeeeeeery drunk friend.

So anyway, veeeeeeeeeery drunk girl was found unconcious outside a frat house and finally got home, and mildly drunk girl got back to find some veeeeeeery angry room and hallmates screaming at her.

This went on for a good twenty minutes. I tihnk I heard "fuck" more often last night than I did while seeing 8 Mile....it was that bad. Even my roommate woke up, and she can sleep through my speed typing! I'm really surprised that the RA didn't wake up, but then again...she's on the other end of the hall from me, and everything happened right outside my door.

....So this, my friends, is why you don't go out drinking, especially with a snobby sorority girl.
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..It's been...a rough day. I get to school..find out that camp is cancelled...stew over that for a while...find out that I'm going to start the 4th quarter of school badly, as I'm not going to get 3 assignments for three different classes done on time. (Summary for History...Essay for Ap English...letter for contemp. issues)...then I go to Mansfield, find out I did pretty damn good at art districts...have flashbacks of Dad's death on the way home...and then I get home and find an interesting comment on my Elfwood page.

So I emailed the brother I haven't even seen since I was 13. And...it's so incredibly stressful.

And...tomorrow another 5 hour car trip to Kansas City...and Sunday, 2 hours to St. Louis. At least it's to see the Cowboy Bebop movie though.

Meh. Life is complicated.

There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight
My biggest fear will be the rescue of me
Strange how it turns out that way
Could you show me dear
Something I've not seen
Something infinitely interesting
Could you show me dear
Something I've not seen
Something infinitely interesting
There's something about the way you move
I see your mouth in slow motion when you sing
More subtle than something someone contrives
Your movements echo that I have seen the real thing
Your biggest fear will be the rescue of you
Strange how it turns out that way
Could you show me dear
Something I've not seen
Something infinitely interesting
Could you show me dear
Something I've not seen
Something infinitely interesting
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Well isn't this just peachy keen.

Bush is an idiot, Legi is an idiot...just about everyone is an idiot. Just because I said so. Bush wants war, Legi wants a merger, and I'm in a bad mood after being at Adam's mom's funeral mass.

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Let's see...I tried to post the other night, but livejournal decided to be a bitch.

So anyway, the other day, I was ready to kill Cody. See...before this year, I was always the short, unpopular kid...and every time someone would say "Hey Katy..so-and-so thinks you're hot"..it was always a cruel joke. So ..um..Monday, I think, Cody is like "Katy, Trevor thinks you're hot!"

I don't even know who the hell Trevor is. >.>

What makes me mad is that Cody goes to my church..and is all nice to me there, but once he's with his friends, he acts like a bastard.

And I have a new anime obsession. Cowboy Bebop. Lissie lent me her DVD's...the entire (UNEDITED) series..and I just have three more episodes to watch. Spike is just...cool, as is Faye..and Ein, and Ed..and Jet......and Vicious is my Sephy with short hair :D Now I want to start RPing bounty hunters. >.<

*thinks for a moment* Yeah..this is a short post...that's all I have to talk about. Oooh..Evenescene kicks all ass...and I have another Quiz Bowl tourny tomorrow.

And snow is the spawn of satan.

See you space cowboy...
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It's time for another mini-life lesson. Sorta, I guess. So here's the question.

Who am I? What am I? Where do I belong? When will I know? Why the hell is it taking so long to figure out?

There, the whole journalists list of questions. Mom would be proud, if she ever saw it. Anyway...I guess I must complain for a little bit, but I promise this won't be too long. I'm really too lazy to type much tonight. So..to start. Who am I? Sometimes I think I know, but then other times...I'm so clueless it isn't even funny. Like the other night. Now...I know some people who read this are going to laugh, but after watching Sweet Home Alabama...I really started thinking. If I do get the chance to fulfill my dream and act...how will it change me? I watched Melanie (the main character...Damn, I really dislike chick flicks...(despite being a chick)..but this was good enough to remember the protagonists name)....So anyway, I watched Melanie turn from a loveable hick to a New York bitch. ...And I wondered...Could that happen to me? Yeah, I'm pretty bitchy online, but IRL..I'm pretty nice. So...am I willing to risk losing that one part of myself that I know is real? Maybe....maybe not.

But that brings me to question # 3. (we're skipping 2..I do know I am Empress Katarina Decimus...aka Princess Aty-Aty...aka Space Kitty....aka many many MANY other nicknames..)...Where DO I belong? Could I belong in the big city...back in Chicago, or even New York? Is that where I'm meant to be? Or am I supposed to live in hicksville forever?....damn, I hope not. >.> ...But when will I figure it out?...I'm 18 years old! I'm legally an adult, yet I have no clue what the hell I'm doing with my life. I want to be an actress...fat chance....I want to professionally write...another fat chance. I want to be an archaeologist...or even anthropologist...but with the damned war about to happen, will I have to go to college for a "practical" job?

Sigh. Life is confusing. And I am soooooooo thirsty...O.o


Feb. 5th, 2003 08:44 pm
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Let's see here. Yet another boring day, yet another boring topic. Absolutly nothing exciting happened today...other than Lissie is miffed because I didn't lather her adaptation of Titus Andronicus with praise on flyaway and was actually...gasp...agreeing with crazythorn on many points. That...and Elane STILL isn't talking to me. All because I told her that she was trying too hard to be punk. ....I'm sorry, but wearing cut off jeans in -3 degree temperature just because Good Charlotte or some other Neo-Punk band is trying too damn hard...and yes, it IS poserism! It is the worst form of it, too! Isn't the whole concept of 'punk' to be a noncornformist?

By dressing exactly like these bands and such....isn't that conforming? Damn...be your OWN person for once. Don't try to be something you're not. I hate it when people think they have to be exactly like someone else to be accepted. And yes...while Elane is certainly unique in our school...She's still not in the rest of the world. There are thousands upon thousands of people exactly like her in the way they dress, talk, and listen to music. As Xero, from UFF9 likes to say.. "You're unique. Just like everyone else."

Sigh. That brings up another point. Am I a hyprocrite for talking about Elane that way? Can I call myself a non-poser? Maybe, maybe not. I listen to whatever I like...and it doesn't matter if the band is a 'sellout' or not...if I like it, that's what matters. I also dress how I want to dress. But because I don't go blatantly out of style with my clothing...well, according to people like Elane, I'm not cool enough to be around. Grumble. So my mother won't let me dye my hair purple...at least I have a job opportunity. She says "Oh, I'll just work at Hot Topic.."....You and the rest of the posers out there with the green hair.

Hot Topic. That store simply drives me insane. Everyone, including a few of the preppier people at my school are like "Oh my gosh! it is like..the kewlest store out there!"...And yes, I know they don't actually say "kewl" but they're the kinda people who DO type that stuff. And yes...it also includes "U" "R" "2" and other such disgusting displays of a lack of intelligence....Eh, back on subject. Don't these people understand that Hot Topic is just as much of a tool of society as the Gap! Overcharging for punk and goth clothing...when half the people don't even know the meaning! I will admit that I am neither, so I have little room to talk, but these wannabe's just...drive me insane.

Hmm...maybe I'm being a little harsh. After all, I could seriously be called a hypocrite for this...but you know what? To hell with all of you people who judge me, for whatever reason. It could be because I'm slightly overweight. Well..screw you, I've lost about 20 pounds healthily in the last 2 months, unlike you who puke it up, or don't eat at all. I am closer to my ideal weight than ever before...and even though I was never obese to begin with...I am still healthier than you. But ooooh...you 110 pound people always bewailing that you're "soooo fat". Go suck a dead bear. So my hair isn't picture perfect every day. Zippideedoodaday. I prefer not to get up at 4:30 am just to make every strand of hair do exactly what it's supposed to. Ha...just wait until your hair falls out from all the crap you put into it! ....Oooh...and let's not forget the clothing issue. I don't wear Abercrombie and Fitch. Get over it.

Yes, I am being a little too overbearing, but live with it. To quote the infamous song...

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
and I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

And oooh..Rome kicks all ass.


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