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Okay...I've kept all of my readers (What, all...two of you? ^_~) in suspense, so I'm finally going to write up this post.

Let's start with my week at home. Gah. I haven't been so bored in ...forever. Friday night I killed my back 'cause I was always leaning forward to talk to mom and Dave..then I slept, and Saturday was..weird. I helped skin a deer. *shudder* Nasty. Insanely. I'm proud of myself though, because I'm realyl squeamish around bloody and such, and that was one of the bloodiest things I've ever been around. Actually...the bloodiest thing I've ever been around. I made Marie come pick me up though, because A- I was cold, and B- it was getting too nasty when they cut the deer's head off. That was enough for me, heh. And I think I'll be out of school by the time we get the house done. Dave's sick and whutnot..so I'm seeing the rest of the family being in town until I'm long gone. Sigh. We never should have bought that place. It was...not worth it. At all. I think Mom and Dave were deluding themselves. Of course, I'll never actually say that, but I think that. -_-;

Hmm..then Saturday night I went to the play..and about died laughing. They did Captain Fantastic, another Tim Kelly play, and I was like. "haha!" the entire way through. It was also cool, 'cause I sat by Ms. Sheeley and only we and a few other people got some of the more subtle jokes, mostly plays on words and whutnot. T'was a pity that I didn't see Mrs. Condray of Mrs. Nickles though. That woulda made things perfect. And then Lissie came over, we had cake for mom's birthday, and then Sunday was boring. Normal day. I decided to skip Spanish and Anthropology Monday, so I went ahead and stayed over. Big mistake. I ended up cleaning the house. >.< It's like..I don't mind cleaning up after myself and sometimes Christina, but I DON'T LIVE THERE ANYMORE! I don't even think I'll stay there over the summer, I want to move in with Marie so that I can get a job in Rolla, which would be sooo much easier than trying to find a job in Salem. Er...off on a tangent. Again.

Okay. So yeah. Dull Thanksgiving, I spent the night before cleaning with Marie (Which was okay, 'cause my sister is the coolest person in the world), and then the day stuffing olives (which was okay, I guess) and watching dumb movies. I'm sorry, but you can only watch Scrooged so many times before it gets insanely old -_- Then Friday was boring, playing Kingdom Hearts...and finally, Saturday I got to come back to the dorms! It was amazingly wonderful. Almost no one was in the dorms because it was still technically Thanksgiving break, so I could play my music...and actually work on graphics. It was wonderful. I managed to get TE finished. ^_^ Looks pretty good, even though I have to use FrontPage. Gah. One of these days I'm going to learn html. I swear!

So yeah...then I have some random stuff happen in class, nothing special. As usual, the majority of the drama happens online. Although, I'm just going to sorta half rant about UFF9 for a few moments. :) I'm not exactly happy with a few things. Most notable keeping luna in her mod spot. Now..Lu is an awesome person, I love her to death, but she has done NOTHING for well over a month. I'm convinced that the only reason she's still there is because of Silverwolf. Once again, a guy I love to death, but come on! The graphics forum is my love, and I have soo many ideas for it..starting up something like Shinra, 'cause we have a few graphic artists, but no incentive to post. Meh. Soooooo many ideas, but Lu isn't even around so I can share 'em so she can think about putting them into effect. UFF9 needs some posting incentives, and there are sooo many ideas I have for the graphics forum, but I would rather be selfish.

Anyway...enough for now. Just...visit TE or something.....Oh. Battle Royale is uber-ness incarnate. (:
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And here I go..off for the weekend..only to come back here Sunday and once again go home Tuesday..O.o

....And Bobbie, should you read this- SHAME ON YOU FOR MISSING THE PLAY THIS WEEKEND!

..though, if you read that at home, heh...then it's fine. ^.^

Max..I love you. :)
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It's been an...interesting weekend. Right now, as I'm typing, it's 11:20...and I should be typing up my two page summary of the first three chapters of a Harry S Truman biography. Meh. I only read the first chapter...It's all senioritis, I tell ya. I'm so incredibly close to being out og high school for ever...but I'm slacking sooo much lately. Sigh. My algebra is proof of that...though, that's not really my fault. I simply didn't understand the entire last chapter, because math is NOT my forte. T'isn't fair. I need to keep a 3.6 gpa until I graduate, in order to keep my scholarship...but this damned algebra class is making it hard. I hate not being able to do math.

But...enough on that. Friday night was...cool. I got home from play practice and Dave is like "Let's go for pizza!" So we did...stuffed crust is the bestest ever...so long as it's with pineapple ^.^ ..And then we went to one store...I got a new pair of flipflops...then we stopped at Wal-Mart for the basic stuff....and I got the Evanescence cd..it's been playing practically nonstop, because Evanescence kicks all ass. And then...naturally, I get online, get semi-depressed, though I'd rather not worry about it anymore...and slept

And yesterday, Mom and I went shopping. :D We first ran to Wal-Mart for a disposable camera...then to the local thrift shop, where I got my gloves for Prom...then we drove to Rolla...took my senior pictures, ate at the K-Mart cafe thingy, and got some new clothes. Quite cute. =^.^=...and then, as soon as I got home, I fell asleep...then got online, got pissed because Mom made me get off early...played FFVII...got to the beginning of disk three...got BACK online, and then went to bed at 1:30.

And today was the typical Sunday. Church, play practice, computer. Nothing spectular. Well...yeah, there was a really super good part, and that was when Max called. *happy* I despise talking on the phone, but I love talking to Max. Just because.

And now...I think I'm going to work on a small graphic thingymabopper for TDH...and then take a shower and sleep. It's been a LONG weekend.
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Well...I'm tired, semi-upset, but at the same time in an alright mood. Weird, I know. So anyways...I'm upset 'cause the play's over with (I can't wear my black lipstick anymore *sniffles) and I have a low grade in English (a B) which is my best subject. Now before you tear into me for being upset over a B, lemme remind you that I am a top honors student, plus a member of National Honor Society. *shrugs*

Anyway..I'm half upset 'cause Max is sick and such. It gets me down when he's down.

So i'm going to leave ya'll with a song. For the longest time this has been my song, and it will forever be my song, though others may become another of my songs. Anyways, Worlds Apart, by Jars of Clay...is just IT.


I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all adds up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
to give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans,
more abundant than the tear
Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart



I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart



Ugh...one more song. I'm just in a song posting mood.

Convinced of my deception
I've always been a fool
I fear this love reaction
Just like you said I would

A rose could never lie
About the love it brings
And I could never promise
To be any of those things


If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken
Growing old
I would be...
I would be...
I would be...

Blessed are the shallow
Depth they'll never find
Seemed to be some comfort
In rooms I try to hide

Exposed beyond the shadows
You take the cup from me
Your dirt removes my blindness
Your pain becomes my peace

...frail
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For those of you out there who don't know, I live a double life. On one side I am the happy-go-lucky high school student who doesn't care what people think. That me is Mike's girlfriend, Justin and Sylvia's best friend...teacher's pet in most classes, and top honor student.


But in my other life, the 'fake' one...I am who I really am. I am the scared person who needs people, I am the angsty and slightly depressed teenager. And in this 'non-reality' I have found love.


But right now I need to talk about my 'real' life. Sometimes I really wonder if Sylvia didn't get mixed up with the whole boyfriend thing. Mike is possessive as hell..she likes that, I hate it. Justin likes his freedom, I love mine too. Sylvia wants someone there all the time, as does Mike. I like to just go around and do what I want. Same for Justin. And it seems as though Mike and Sylvia spend more time together..and I KNOW Justin and I spend more time together. *shrugs* pretty annoying, actually.


Ugh. Life is so confusing. At least there is one thing I am sure of.

I really do love.

But yet at the same time, I am so scared to lose him...it scares me to death.

So anyway...since I am on borrowed time, I'm going to shut up.

And one more thing...opening night is tomorrow night. Whoooeee! Katy gets to dress all goth-girl like for the play! *dances off into the ever-poetic night*
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AH..it's been forever since I've updated this. Oh well, live with it.


Anyways, life has been interesting. Sorta. The Jackass returned, tried to get into the sim I guru in...he got banned. Muah. I'll go into a few more details later. I'm just summarizing life right now. Um..yesterday (3-7-02) I was in Columbia MO, on a drama trip. It was incredibly cool. The stage comabat workshop was awesome, but the play..was just...totally kickass. Steve Martin wrote it...that's all that really has to be said. Um..today I got chewed out 7th hour for wearing headphones in the library...*grumbles* I was listening to classical! (sorta..LotR is close enough to classical)...that made me mad...then um...lets see...the play is going well...my mom is getting married really soon..NHS sucks, as does FCCLA...and I hate my choir teacher...and I have a new favorite song.


So..now onto details. Ok..Jason is the jackass. He's the one who A) can't take a joke, B) has an ego larger than the Sears Tower, and C) doesn't respect authority at all. He is the biggest godmoder in RP...and he's a terrible RPer to start with. So anyway, last week or so he tries to join Galactic Balance (GB for short)..I'm the force guru there. Muah. Um..back on subject. He's trying to bring in a godmoded character...we don't let him..he keeps trying more things...then he starts telling me and Sandra (the headhoncho) off...so now..finally...he's banned. *dances all happy-like*


Um..now onto my trip yesterday. It was a drama trip, the Uiversity of Mssouri hosted it, and several drama clubs from around the state were invited. SO we go..Justin and I go to the stag combat workshop...which was really kinda boring. but the play..oh the play was phenomenal. Steve Martin wrote it...it totally kicked ass. It was hilarious as anything I have ever seen. And then at the mall I picked up the new jars of Clay album..it's been 3 years since they've had a new one..and I also picked up the LotR soundtrack...as well as a spiked hemp necklace. I like it.

But the most fun came on the way home on the bus. Drama students playing truth or dare. *coughs* someone had to wiggle and make noises like a vibrator..*coughs again* then that same someone had to scream out the name of a certain video game character (Sephiroth) as though..*ahems*..I think you get the picture. It was soo hilarious. My best friend had to make out with the seat, and my other friend had to do some exotic dancing. Lemme tell ya, drama people are crazy. Muah.

Um..next topic. OH yesh. School sucks. Wlbur chewed me out for listening to my CD's when I was writing a report. Stupid jerk. It wasn't like I was even in class. We were in the damned library! So he's being a jerk....Ugh..I detest school.

And one more thing. I have a new favorite song. It's off Jars of Clay's new album, The Eleventh Hour Go buy the CD or DL some of the songs! NOW!


ANd whoa...no rants tonight...except for that slight one about Wilbur. *shrugs* Anyways...here's my new favorite song.

If you put your arms around me
could it change the way I feel?
I guess I let myself believe
that the outside might just bleed it’s way in.
Maybe stir the sleeping past lying under glass.
Waiting for the kiss to break this awful spell.
Pull me out of this lonely hell.
Close my eyes and hold my heart.
Cover me and make me normal.
Change this something normal into
something beautiful.
What I get from my reflection isn¹t what I thought I’d see. Give me reason to believe you’d never leave me incomplete.
Will you untie this loss of mine,
it so easily defines me.
Do you see it on my face.
That all I can think about
is how long I’ve been waiting to feel you move me.
Close my eyes and hold my heart.
Cover me and make me normal.
Change this something normal into
something beautiful

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